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Now I'm a little bit lost.... I dont feel right... im powerless.... ive tried to read books to get me back on track... but when i think of someone nice.... im lost..... ive tried to get busy......... but when it slips my mind.... deep in thought... ive tried hanging out w friends, children .......  but when i hear nice songs.... off course again .... never thought id be in this situation.... Excitement was my companion....now i cant seem to find it..... got to get excited...as soon as possible... -- When life gives us lemons we should make lemonaides. but (where can i get MY lemons???)

The whole day was spent just thinking of us, and on where will spend the whole day and how…. Oh it was just a lovely day…. When we talk I Just can't help staring. And im trying to memorize the face for when I go home, it will be just me and my imagination Every glance and every look reveals the way I feel. That feeling makes me excited to wake up in the morning just knowing that we'll meet if not today tomorrow  :D I was such on a positive feeling… I wish I had more time so I could give flowers, and express well We talked the whole day, about our selves, and other topics that seem boring and lifeless to others. When we wa

Well I notice I haven't been writing about my journal since December.. it's summer time already.  And everybody if not planning, is already having their vacation.. As for me we first have our summer treat at laguna a couple of days back…. Everybody enjoyed it except me, during that day my whole body is swollen,  :toocool: pumped not by muscle but by allergy, food allergy that is..  it was like I was hulk for one day… and as I write this this journal my lips is still swollen .. I spend the whole day in bed,  :blownose:  the pleasure I get there was Sleeping..  well its still better, I think nothing still beats the pleasure of  having